Two posts in one day. What is wrong with me?

It's just my insecurities are really getting the better of me... I'm questioning everything, and I'm so so worried that Ian is becoming fed up with me, is falling out of love with me, is contemplating cheating on me or at least forming emotional attachments to another woman, or just wants to screw another woman, is wanting to spend as little time as possible with me.

I know the things that wind him up, and I do try and stop them.

I need to do this.

Mission 1: Stop whinging as much. Just get over it. If something is upsetting me/annoying me... Don't whinge about it, just accept it. If it's big, then talk to somebody else, just not him. Know that shit happens.  This is life. I can get over it. It's not going to change anything by me whinging about it. Be happy. Be joyful. Be nice. Do NOT be a whingebag. I can do this. As soon as he gets up I will put on a smile, ignore my heart-ache that is overwhelming me. Be happy.

I will not be the cause of the breakdown of our relationship. I can do this.